Fallout 

Lies and deception, a changing of perception, the fact of the matter though is, if you trust Thais – as Jordan did, and fully – it seems you are literally taking your life in your hands. Any trust which may have remained for Thais died with Jordan Coe. Until Jordan’s death, in my mind, the constant deceit, the malice, was a reaction to my own character. My fault, no doubt. Culture gap, lack of understanding. However, no matter the lengths we go to to integrate into this pretty sordid society, we are met with disappointment and failure.

Here material wealth is all, but most often it is used to insulate from realities. Only when you learn the language do you realise the extent of the racism which permeates this country – they’re not saying much, invariably, just the usual racial slurs and bitchy remarks. What it exemplifies however, roughly equates to a nationwide contempt for foreigners… falang, falang. You hear it everywhere, every day, with virtually every interaction – like some bigoted echo.

There is much to love about this place of course, the food, the landscape, the weather, the way of life attracts people from across the globe. I really want to love it, but it’s all becoming rather superficial. It’s all fun and games until somebody dies. Thais are a peaceful people, comparatively, however my experiences with them have shown them as almost inherently deceptive. They want your money, they can’t help it. Got to watch your back 24/7 or you might find a knife in it – and they’ll be smiling the whole way to the ditch. Later comes the “fuck you.” I wish these views weren’t based on evidence, I wish I didn’t know them the way I do.

  Part of it is incompetence, of course. When someone dies here, everyone just denies responsibility. Police? What police? The same is true if you can pay your way out of trouble – kill someone in a high-speed motorbike collision? Got money? Mai bpen rai. Even for a falang. So it works both ways. But my sorrow over Jordan’s death has led to a darkening in every aspect of my view of this society because he embodied positivity, because he trusted them. Of this in many ways the so-called “dream” died with him, because we envisioned it. Jordan loved this place, in spite of what we knew about it… and they still managed to let him die. Of course they had to get him, and it happened because they just don’t care.  

   This is a dangerous country, I’m taking a risk even writing this. Six teenagers have died in the last three weeks in motorbike accidents in Phuket alone. Last night I saw cctv footage of a passer-by robbing the corpse of a teen girl who had been crushed by a garbage truck before proceeding to direct traffic around her body.

But Jordan’s death was no freak rush-hour garbage-lorry rampage. Jordan was found 50 yards from the road he had been running on, under a bush with blood streaming from his nose. The next day. Why was there no conclusive autopsy or police report on the cause of his death? Why were we never approached by a police officer during the debacle? Couldn’t they even look after his body after he died? Why were we watched over constantly by mafia-men who went through my things when I was gone? Why was Jordan’s mother left to deal with his repatriation virtually alone?   

   Life here is basic and often brutal, and life here is cheap, and trust is the greatest weapon in a war you don’t even realise is being fought. The pity of it is that of anyone, Jordan deserved this injustice least of all. 

Edit: I do not by any means believe any of these traits are exclusive to Thai people, or that any race is superior to any other. On the contrary, dignity and respect should be universally applied to all peoples regardless of race or social standing.

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  1. My friend Jordan lived a life of choice and chance he will be missed I accept that Thais have their own agenda but I have experience the opposite too what is really important is that Jordan came home to his family that the people which supports the sport united to get him home that Jordan although a very short life that could have continue for many years was full of experiences and lived to the full
    My friend I share your sadness and frustration and I wish if I could swab places with Jordan but I can’t
    My friend life is full of disappointments and this is due to our expectations we expect people to be as loyal, caring, honest and supportive as we will be you only have to go through history and look at what happened to majority of champions you will find that they either set up a gym, become a drug addict or alcoholics one was shown on TV robbing a shop
    Life is a constant fight Jordan is and always be missed without a doubt just make sure you are ok
    From a brother who cares

  2. I still think this post is racist. While edict attempts to apologize for the stereotyping the general tone is blaming. The very first lines show the writer’s bittterness: “Lies and deception, a changing of perception, the fact of the matter though is, if you trust Thais – as Jordan did, and fully – it seems you are literally taking your life in your hands. Any respect I may have retained for Thais died with Jordan Coe.”

    The other thing is that it wasn’t Jordan’s first weight cut. Maybe we should be blaming him instead of the gym and “the thais.” He was an experienced fighter and he should know his body well enough. But ultimately where does blaming Jordan get us? Nowhere. Where does blaming “the Thais” get us? Nowhere.

    In addition the author seems to be delusional. He seems to think that Thais solely care about money, which is partially true but it misses out on the bigger picture. We live in capitalism everyone fucking cares about money. Muay Thai is not just a sport it is also a business and for many people tourists are just walking commodities. Why? Because they act like it. When the author says that all thais just care about his money he forgets that he is essentially a tourist and an outsider. He certainly comes from a country with more socio economic wealth than Thailand.

    I get it that the author is upset. Jordan’s death is upsetting. But blaming people and acting racist isn’t a good idea. Jordan’s death was an accident, a preventable accident but an accident all the same.

    1. Who the fuck are you? Do I know you? Did you know Jordan? Do you realise Jordan died because his trainers left him outside overnight after he began having complications? …because they weren’t even in the same city? How DARE you come on here and suggest we blame Jordan? How dare you accuse me of racism by quoting the first 5 lines of the topic? I don’t give two fucks what you think – some office brown nose bitch commenting on the endeavours of real men, as though you have any idea about that which you speak. Have you lived here, amongst these people, in their poverty, and experienced years of this life of trial? Of course not. Do you have any idea of the sacrifices we make in pursuit of this goal? Of course not. Have you even been here? You wouldn’t last a day. So what then gives you any right to criticise those who choose this as their way, when your own banal and effeminate existence lacks any meaning whatsoever?

      1. Couldn’t agree more Craig, I read half of that comment with my jaw on the floor at the absolute AUDACITY

      2. ‘This life of trial’, what a laugh. You’re a paid fighter in a foreign land, hypocritically ripping off the ‘inherently deceptive’ Thais that you shit on by dodging proper immigration channels yourself. You’re literally a fraud. Keep up the blog posts though, your mastubatory rants are absolutely hilarious reading

  3. The death of Jordan has left many people feeling helpless and distressed. All who knew him know that Jordan loved life and he loved Muay Thai. He shouldn’t have died but he did and we can’t bring him back. Some things can never be undone. However the sentiments of the author are sheer speculations regarding his cause of death and the comments of the Thai people are merely an opinion. I have lived and breathed Thailand and its people for over 7 years, and like any place in the world, there are good and bad people. Racism is alive and well all over the world too and honestly some of the behaviours foreigners display when touring or living in Thailand, it is no surprise that some Thais have a very low opinion of foreigners.

    I almost lost my son in Thailand, also a talented and passionate Muay Thai fighter. There was a wealth of speculation surrounding his accident. His wallet and mobile phone had been stolen and he had most likely been kicked off his motorbike. We did not turn this tragedy to anger and hatred. We continued living in Thailand and call it home. I have met wonderful Thais who were available to help without asking anything in return. I have Thai friends and my overall experience with Thais has been positive. I dont think at all that Jordan’s death is the fault of the Thai community. All the “ifs” count for nothing. He wasn’t murdered! It was sheer negligence from both Jordan and the Muay Thai trainers and even this scenario is wrong as many fighters run alone. I just hope there will be more focus on those training and better education about the dangers of cutting weight.

    Let’s not turn Jordan’s death into violent emotions toward the Thai community. This is NOT what Jordan would approve of. Let’s remember him for the energetic, funny, passionate young man that he was and honour him with thoughts of love and peace.

    1. At no point did I suggest Jordan was murdered. Of course there are good and bad people in every society, and many of those bad ones come here from outside to have their way. That affects how we are seen. What that is not an excuse for is all the things I mention in this passage. I’m not certain what the purpose of this post was, other than to vent years of frustration at the near constant deceit people who attempt to create a life in this country face whenever money is involved, the confidence tricks etc, which have culminated in the preventable death of my friend. Of course we may have meaningful interactions on an individual level with thais, but when push comes to shove they just cannot be trusted because they just do not care.

      1. You are not going to change their system. Foreigners will always be foreigners in Thailand, regardless of how many years one lives there. Yes true! Many people have been deceived in business and I for one would never do business with Thais. However in saying that, there are very many foreigners I know personally who are doing business with Thais and it is working quite well. Are you trying to raise awareness of some sort? I’m not sure now what you were implying when you stated where Jordan was found and the reference to the bloody nose, the autopsy etc. So I apologise for the confusion in reading your statements. I know it is painful for you, having lost such an awesome friend, it is a senseless death and one I’m sure could have been prevented and I hope that Jordan’s death is a lesson to Muay Thai community and all involved. Perhaps you can turn this accident into an awareness health and safety during training and in preparation for fights.

      2. You are completely right, I’m sure. I dont know what im doing, I just feel very frustrated and alienated, but I thank you for taking the time to give me feedback, for sure you advise well.

  4. So sad to hear lived there for a little while and whilst there is a number of thais like you describe…… there is also a number who could not be more generous

    Not to be rude of pry but can you expand on the complications ? just really curious as to whats happened as this has come up on my FB news feed ALOT and would like to know what happened ?

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